Okay so if you go to my school you know what I'm talking about but even if you don't you can still help me with this.

Anyway, if you are one of the ones that I told to wear black/grey/white just do that sometimes next week and come find me in the morning or afternoon.

Most mornings: Sinclitico (next to McGee's for point of reference or hall next to Beers's room)

Most afternoons: I go out the main doors. If you need me to come out the gym doors, I can. Just tell me what day.

Any other day: John's shindig (sometime around Christmas)

Other options for people I know in reality: send me a pic/video (preferred but pic is fine) of you not looking at the camera wearing black or white. You can be sitting or standing or lying down or listening to your iPod as long as you're not looking at the camera and you aren't smiling anything is fine. No porn pieces please. (not that any of you would do that)

Other ways you can help me: Help me make signs. Email or Note me here on dA if you want to help me.

One way everybody could help me no matter who you are:

Listening here: the song is Vices by Dead Poetic (anybody making a connection...)
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Give me some vices (your own or those you know):

Vices: evil, degrading, or immoral practices or habits; ex. addictions, self-harm, looking at porn


It would help me out a lot...so get your creative juices flowing and hit me with your vices.

-Mowantsyoursoul

And for a moment, for a moment
I am happy....
But when I'm alone
No one hears me cry
I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light...

Courage by Superchick
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You'd be eighteen now, finally a man in the eyes of the world. But I don't think you had ever been a child. To me, even in the times we were laughing, you were too serious, too mature, too old...It was written there in the shadows in your eyes, the remnants of what your father did to you. It was written in the way cancer took the use of your right hand. It was written in your pained smile as you tried to convince us you were all right. The same pained smile you gave us after another attempt to take your own life...
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So yesterday I had an awesome time with Tiff, John, and Simon at the Visit Day at UMBC. Even though it's not on any of our lists, we decided to go tour it anyway. It was awesome because I got to hang with my best friends...and get lost with them...and walk all over campus in the rain with them...and have a four-way-talking-about-a-lot-stuff jumbled conversations with them. It was fun with a ph- (S/T say it with me: PHYSICS).

And I think I did beast on my AP Chem test today.

Anyway, I'd better get back to keeping my head above water with all the stuff I have to do.

LTRS, yo.

-Mothinksitsweirdyoutriedtotrickherintoth inkingyouhadaboyfriend