It's the people like you
The reasons why I don't stay
It's the people like you
The reasons I'm runnin' away
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Well...someone gave me an offer that I've been seriously thinking about for the past few days. I don't know what to think about it really. The pros of saying yes: no more Beltsville, no more Roosevelt, no more of the same. The cons: no more people that I know(well except the people I'd be living with). I'm going to be thrown into a new world where I'm completely new and have no idea what to do. But it's a lot more appealing than staying where I am at the moment.

I got the offer months ago and I figured I would stay anyway. At least for my friends. But now...I don't know. I'm not happy here. I hate it here. I keep thinking about what Mr. Bernstein said about how he left but then he came back because even though it was hell, at least he knew where he stood. Yeah...even though this feels like hell, I know where I stand. Any other place...who knows...Maybe. I'm giving it a try even though I know that if I want to come back, I can't. I won't have much to come back to anyway.

Maybe this is just me feeling a bit down after the worse winter break I've ever had with some of the most horrible people on the earth. I don't know but I'm seriously considering that. I still have two months before I really have to decide...so I'm going to finish up my year at Roose and see how it goes. Maybe there will be something to change my mind...maybe there won't be...
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And another thing...to start off this new year and for the rest of I don't know how long. I'm leaving dA. This is my last journal and I'm not getting on again. I do want to keep in contact with some of the people on here that I don't see everyday so email me. And I'll e you back.

email= punksuicide@gmail.com

Later.

-Mo